Letting Go to Let God Lead — My Journey Back to Rahj
A couple months ago, I shared a post on what it feels to let go when situations become toxic — not because it was loud or dramatic or obvious, but because it quietly eroded my values.
At the same time, I was talking about a workplace moment where I did the right thing— reporting a safety concern— and watched how ego, ignorance and closed door whispers try to rewrite the narrative. I stood firm on the facts, tuned in to my standards, didn’t mirror the silence, and ultimately walked away with clarity and peace of mind.
But, I didn’t realize that at that very moment, and the energy that surrounded it, was a sign—pointing me toward a deeper season of letting go.
When the Work You Love Turns Sour
I won’t soften this up: losing my role was painful. Especially after pouring so much of my energy, talent and values into it. I put my trust in the people and the place—not just professionally, but emotionally—and it hurt to see that trust met with hostility once things didn’t go the way some wanted. In moments like that, you realize how quickly allies can turn cold when the story doesn’t serve them. It’s a strange kind of betrayal—not always explosive, but stings nonetheless.
Letting Go Isn’t Weak
Letting go isn’t about giving in or giving up.
It’s recognizing when what is in your hands is meant to be released so what’s meant for you can be received. This is the spiritual force that I’ve been holding on to for quite some time.
I’ve had to anchor down in the truths, God’s promises and the gifts He’s given me. Toxic situations don’t always have to be dramatic and wild. Silent meetings, sideways looks or environments where ego clouds accountability.
..and in those moments, God doesn’t ask you to leave or endure—He asks you to Trust him with what you think you’ve lost.
God’s Plan Can’t Be Canceled
Losing my job didn’t mean losing my purpose. It meant pausing so I could return to who I am—an artist, a creator, a merchant, and a man called to serve in truth. God has been steering me back to what I love: building confidence, style, and something that reflects who I am—not who someone else wants me to be.
I’m not here because my life has been easy—I’m here in this season because God has always proven time and time again that He sees me. Giving me guidance through the storms and keeping me focused in faith.
Some Things Letting Go Has Taught Me
1. Letting go of toxic situations isn’t abandonment—it’s obedience. I felt that when things didn’t align with who I am, my values and integrity, releasing was a step that God intended for me to walk in.
2. Sometimes the people you think have your back, don’t. And that’s not your failure—it’s the choice they’ve made. I had to learn to let go of needing or wanting validation from those who can’t or won’t give it.
3. God sees what you’ve lost and he’s already working on your gain.
4. Your calling is still there—a setback doesn’t mean you’ve failed or your gift is gone. It’s God prepping you to take your gift back with full force and focus.
A New Chapter Begins
I may have stepped out of one job, but I’m stepping back into my life again..my true work as a stylist and new regained love as a merchant—bringing style, confidence, and purpose to others (especially through Banana Republic, where I’m rebuilding my journey).
If you’re reading this and navigating your own season of letting go—of toxic situations, broken relationships, or unsteady places—know this:
Letting go doesn’t make you small.
It makes your hands free for what God has next.
And trust me—He’s already writing the next chapter.